Solitude…
Surrounded by people and the noise. Between multitudes you find yourself in to. Everywhere you look, everywhere you go; they are always there. You smile, you laugh and you talk with them. Being with people gives you a sense of oneness with them. Sharing the same space and breathing the same air. But something, somewhere in your heart… a part craves to be alone.
How many times did it happened to you? When you feel like to be only with yourself? There are moments that we feel the need to be with family, friends and lover. Every one feels that way, to be with someone or to be together with people that matters to you. Though there are times that we would like to be left out on our own. Moments that we need to share with ourselves. To think, to contemplate, to meditate, to realize and to dream.
It doesn’t mean that you want to be alone you are leaving them behind. We need a moment to breathe and have some free space. Away from prying eyes and questioning glances, away from the noise of others, away from things that we do not have control of, away from other bodies… just simply on our own. Take a time to look in to ourselves, take a time to hear your heartbeat, take a time to think things over, take a time to feel yourself… just simply take a time for our own.
Some people might get worried when someone wants to be alone. Maybe it is because you mean so much to them or you are not the quiet type that they seemed to be bothered once you shut up. I, myself tend to worry too when a person wants to be alone. But we do have to respect a person’s decision. At times, being alone helps more in ways unknown. It don’t mean that you don’t need help from people who cares about you. It means that you need to make up your mind about matters that only you can comprehend.
The reason for wanting to be alone varies from one person to one person. There are moments that you get tired of having company and would like to engage yourself in awareness that you need to be on your own. And after being alone, isn’t it wonderful to go back and mingle with others? To know that you have put your mind and soul to rest for a moment when you are just with yourself. Sometimes we need to be on our own to know the value of having loving people beside us.
For me to be alone means to be in our rooftop. To savor the cool air and feel it refresh my body. To see things that can never be seen from below. To behold the beauty of a sunrise or a sunset, shape-shifting clouds, birds soaring in the sky, the silver moon and the specks of light coming from the stars. To reminisce of the past, decide for the present and dream of the future. To smile, to laugh, to cry, to hate and to forgive.
So go on, it is not bad to be on your own. It is a need, it is a want. Because no matter happens, after being alone… there is always someone waiting for your return.
