Angst_Ridden

Lean on me, when you’re not strong.
And I’ll be your friend.
I’ll help you carry on.
For it won’t be long ’til I’m gonna need.
Somebody to lean on.

That is part of the song by "Bill Withers" entitled "Lean On Me". Who wouldn’t know this song? It is a song of friendship, love and trust. The words that transpires through the melody speaks of all a person can do for someone he or she truly cares about.

In this world, there are a lot of things trying to bring us down. There are times that we cannot handle it and tried to hide it on our own. We may pretend to be alright but inside we know that it is bothering us. We look for someone to turn to but don’t know who. It happens, not just to me but to all of us. Sometimes we tend to keep it to ourselves.

But there are those who can simply see the pain in your eyes in a glance. And though how much we try to conceal it, they are aware of the war surging in your heart and mind. They are looking through the difficulties of your situation and understands the reason why you cannot admit it to others.

Those are friends, true friends. People who care and knows what you are going through. They are the one you come to when you needed comfort from the pains of the world. Those who protect you from harm, not just from others but from yourself. Those who will cry with you when you are sad, laugh with you when you are happy, rejoice with you in celebration, kiss your tears away, hug you even how worse you look in some days, gives you time when you are alone and waits when you come back, remains silent when asked to and joins you to scream at the top of your lungs.

Friends are not just your so-called circle of friends. Family, relatives and lovers can be also be considered as friends. Friends are not jut those who are near or always beside you. Because in here, we all connect and have interaction with each other. We may not be able to see each other through the distance but we share a connection. An emotional connection rather than a physical connection and that what develops our friendship.

There are times that I, myself cannot indulge my feelings and problems with my friends around me. It is not that I am ashamed to tell them but there is something else that is holding me back. There are times that I need a moment to reflect first on the muddy waters before me. And from that I decide if I have to say it or not.

But in here, I can always open my self up. Because I found out that there are a lot of people out there that can relate to what I am going through and could help me better. It is not that my friends near me cannot but sometimes different views give me more insight. The truth is, people around here tends to get drastic over things and I don’t want more drama than to what I am having at the moment. So the best way I can resolve things is to ask my friends from different places for opinions or help.

And yet, there are also things and situations that I can’t tell here over the net and better kept within the premises. So I think it is pretty fair to have things in balance when asking for help. But even though, all of you are still my friends and nothing can change that fact.

Being near or far, always remember that I am here. I may not be the best but I am true and that is something I guarantee for those who I entrust a piece of my heart. You my friends have become my shelter and in return I want to be your shelter too when needed be. I will be here for all of you, needed or not. For me that’s what a true friend is.

- francois -