Angst_Ridden

And he just came out. That night, we never expected it to happen but it did. We are so busy preparing dinner that it almost came as a shock. We are all dumbfounded but happy at the same time. I could say that it was the highlight of our dinner that night. The whole family could hardly believe it and excited.

I saw him and knew at that moment I have fallen in love. Just being "new" to the world, I don’t want him to be culture shocked so I have to take precautions. Stealing glances and trying to touch him whenever I can. Just a look and it bring smiles to my face. Cannot explain the way he makes me feel. This feeling I have, I just cannot contain it within myself.

Then the day came when I couldn’t hold back and took him in my arms. Mom and Dad was surprised to see us together but simply smiled. His mother, watching us angrily but gave out and stormed out of the room. I looked at him and at the door where his mother left out. She will get over it, I know… she is just being protective over her son. I never let it worry me because finally he is here with me.

For me, he is the most beautiful thing. As we lay beside each other in bed, I cannot help but watch as he softly sleeps. His chest heaving with every breath, making it go up and down. The warmth I feel every time I touch his body. To feel the beating of his heart and the softness of his skin. The way he turns his face when I tickle his chin and rubs his nose against mine… everything about him makes me adore him more.

But I know that we cannot always be together because his mother expects him always at her side. So there are moments that I have to let him go, only to find myself longing to be with him. Yet, life goes and I must wait every day until he can be in my arms again. And those times are when joy overflows from my heart. Those moments filled with smiles and laughter… he never fails to make me do so.

I would never like to let these kind of days pass by. If only I could choose to stay in this moment for all times then I would. But it could never be that way and there are sacrifices to be made. Yet there is joy through it all and I would never want to change a thing about us.

For tonight, he is far away but the morning gives a promise that we will be together again. Back to him, back in my arms. Finally, I got myself a new love. And I could never be more glad than to have him in our life… our new puppy.