365 Days: Overcame
It has been a year… exactly a year and 2 days.
Whatever it was, it is completely over. I was able to move on and erased the hurt and pain I had in my heart. It took me a long time to recover from the loss and to put the pieces of me back together. Time made me realize that there are so many things that lies ahead… things that might not be certatin but things that is worth the try.
It is completely over. Actually, it took me less than 365 days to let go and take the chance again. I am not afraid, instead I am stronger. What happened between us made me wiser. It taught me a lot of things. To learn when to hold on and when to let go, how to love truly and honestly, to know when to give yourself and sacrifice up to when to limit yourself, to love yourself first before putting others before you, to share yourself and still remain whole at the same time.
The moments and words shared between us will never be forgotten. How can you forget something that made you learn lessons in life that is priceless? How can you forget someone who has been a part of your life once upon a time? I cannot… for the past made me who I am at the present and will affect who I will be in the future.
How about the feelings?
It was there… before. But now it has lessen to the extent that I only feel apathy. I cannot remember how it was love you. Funny? Yes… it is funny. To think that before my heart is flowing with all the love I can give yet right here, right now… not even a single drop can be found.
No matter how great a love can be… after the hurt, it will always lessen until it dissolves in to nothing.
But that’s all right.
To lose it, I was able to go on with my life and be happy. To be without it makes the burden lighter. To not have it, I have seen the light of a new day. I am able to smile and laugh without pretension. I am able to frown and cry without having you as a reason. I am able to live again, to breathe again… to start all over again.
And it is a little more than a year… I am happy and I know that you are too.
This is just a piece of remembrance… something to make me remember of what we used to have. You might look back but I am not there anymore, look ahead of you and that’s where I’ll be. I am not walking behind the shadows of you, I have learned to run in to the light and see what is there for me.
